stman
05-26-2010, 05:57 PM
From parade.com
Jesse James claims he was abused as a child, and he sabotaged his marriage with Sandra Bullock out of fear she would leave him anyway.
The 41-year-old reality TV star said he was abused by his father when he was a child, but didn't realize the impact it had on his life until he went into rehab earlier this year, according to ABC. "After about two days I realized, 'Wow, I'm kind of more messed up than most of the people here.' It was like peeling an onion. Every day it was a new revelation about myself and the things I've been doing," he said. "I cried more in rehab in the last 30 days than I have in my whole life. No BS. That's the truth."
Reality TV Couples Curse
James claims his father's abuse created a lasting shame and lack of self-worth that led him to cheat on his wife. "I grew up with a huge amount of shame and fear and abandonment on my shoulders from a very young age and I think, you know, the way my mind rationalized [cheating], 'Well, you know, I might as well do whatever I can to like run her off cause she is going to find out what I am anyway and leave me anyway,'" he said.
James said the demise of his marriage has made him question his accomplishments. "Bike builder, 'Monster Garage' TV star, all that stuff is a huge smokescreen so that people won't see that I'm a scared, abused kid, a seven-year-old," he said.
James' father Larry James e-mailed ABC after the interview aired, claiming the allegations of abuse are not true.
James says he takes full responsibility for cheating on Bullock -- and hopes time will heal their relationship. "I really wish I didn't have to go through all this and put everybody else through this," he said. "But hopefully with time ... I hope people realize that, you know, Hey, I'm human, I make mistakes and I'm sorry for what I did."
Jesse James claims he was abused as a child, and he sabotaged his marriage with Sandra Bullock out of fear she would leave him anyway.
The 41-year-old reality TV star said he was abused by his father when he was a child, but didn't realize the impact it had on his life until he went into rehab earlier this year, according to ABC. "After about two days I realized, 'Wow, I'm kind of more messed up than most of the people here.' It was like peeling an onion. Every day it was a new revelation about myself and the things I've been doing," he said. "I cried more in rehab in the last 30 days than I have in my whole life. No BS. That's the truth."
Reality TV Couples Curse
James claims his father's abuse created a lasting shame and lack of self-worth that led him to cheat on his wife. "I grew up with a huge amount of shame and fear and abandonment on my shoulders from a very young age and I think, you know, the way my mind rationalized [cheating], 'Well, you know, I might as well do whatever I can to like run her off cause she is going to find out what I am anyway and leave me anyway,'" he said.
James said the demise of his marriage has made him question his accomplishments. "Bike builder, 'Monster Garage' TV star, all that stuff is a huge smokescreen so that people won't see that I'm a scared, abused kid, a seven-year-old," he said.
James' father Larry James e-mailed ABC after the interview aired, claiming the allegations of abuse are not true.
James says he takes full responsibility for cheating on Bullock -- and hopes time will heal their relationship. "I really wish I didn't have to go through all this and put everybody else through this," he said. "But hopefully with time ... I hope people realize that, you know, Hey, I'm human, I make mistakes and I'm sorry for what I did."