i still in shock

[ayesha]

:bawl::bawl:yesterday i recieved a call from my brother about 9 am knew it couldn't be good thisbrother never calls. So he tells me my 1st cousin died, I was shock crying she was 57 looked in early 40's did not smoke drink ate healthy and excersied everyday. IT was so sad her son got a call from her work she was a pre school teacher. So he called no answer went over and right away called ambulance i myself when arrived at his house 2 hours later unaware she was still in the bedroom. Corner reported either anurism sorry can't spell or stroke .if wasn't sure i missed my chance 2 see her sunday. And i saw her lying in her bed hands in a first legs well i'll stop sorry i just can't believe it and i can't get the vision out of my head . Today was the funeral but i missed cause i was in the hospital due to my seizures i cryed i did not want to be there i wanted to be with my family i called hoping i could make it but i missed it but talked to the kids .but not 2 my aunther mother yet it so sad when child dies b4 a parent she also was'nt aware she was still at home they live together and then she ended up in the hospital .I'm gonna call now but i'm so sorry for their loss annie, heena and salaman. I love you guys and to my dear melia baji i love you and will miss you dear and hold the memorys in my heart and mind:bawl:

[mj420]

sorry for your loss.
Hang in there as I am sure things will get better.
Sometimes things in life don't make much sense, yet we find a way to carry on.
good luck to you and your's.

[ayesha]

i didn't wanna be the 1st say what her daughter said basically it was her time we could have done nothing

[MacBurglar]

Sorry to hear about the loss of your cousin. Prayers always help.

[hoppy]

Very sorry to here of you're loss,You and you're family will be in our prayers tonight and GOD BLESS!!!!

[hondapro]

God speed and blessed are those who may sleep.

[mechanicman]

sorry for your heartbreak...

[chicot60]

My condolences.

[hoppy]

I don't think it was enjoyable but hope it will help comfort or at least let the family know we care and think of there families lost.

[dishdude714]

Sorry to hear about your loss ayesha...Keep your head up. I know they are looking down on you

[ironworks]

Sorry for your loss ayesha, life is just not fair.................my prayers go out to you and your family................

[whiteheather]

A sudden loss of life is one of the hardest things to accept, if a loved one is ill, and their passing is imminant, this you can bare, to an extent........Do not worry about her, she is at peace, and yes it was her time, also sad their was no chance of goodbye's, keep the wonderfull memories with you, and remember life has to carry on, and a very important thing is that you take care of yourself, do not make yourself ill over something which is out of your control......she is at peace. lean on your family and friends, and your friends here at Satfix, that is why we are here and we listen. be safe......W/H

[12strikes300]

Ayesha sorry to hear of your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you

[Pollypurabred]

(http://www.satfix.net/member.php?10920-ayesha)I too wish to offer my you my condolence. We are here for you. Only a PM or post away.

[cmasjoe]

Sorry for your loss.

[Gold]

Sorry for your loss,
I understand all to well about the disturbing images that stay burned in your mind. It will get better in time. I saw my mom have a stroke 3 years ago & it's still rough at times, but it has gotten easier. I've seem my dad have 3 now...very sad. His last was almost 2 weeks ago. I'm still messed up & cant focus for much more then a few minutes.

It will get better in time ayesha. Just hang in there, & take care of what you need to.

[mlew2]

Sorry for your loss try to keep the good memories in your head more good less bad often helps a bit

[buggyman]

When you lose someone you Never get over it. Period. You will live with it, It will get better with time, but in the end You will Never get over it. You will go on because there is no option but to go on. I know, believe me I do.

[Night_Predator]

I’m so sorry for your loss. My family and I will pray for you and your family’s strength though this very hard time. I have found that it helps me to tell people about my parents and honor their memory. But I hazard to guess that you, like I, will always feel the loss and void of their passing. And I think thats normal after lossing someone we love.