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    Default My younger brother commited suicide 2 weeks ago today,

    been a very tough few weeks for me. My mom called me at work 2 weeks ago to tell me that my brother had commited suicide. I freaked out, left work crying and went to her house. The police were still there waiting for the coroner when I showed up. I could do nothing but cry as we went to the funeral home to make arrangements. The funeral went very well. My brother was a out going give you the shirt off his back type guy, even tho he has 5 kids. he had got in bad trouble and went to jail for a year, when he got out he had no friends or family (other than my mom and my grandmother ) his wife left with the kids and me I wasn't talking to him too much, not since before he went to jail. Now everyone feels so guilty, it didn't have to come to this. Now I'm worried about my mom, she's having a tuff time with this. I'm having a hard time sleeping, waking up 5-6 times a night, and I haven't been able to eat too well yet, she is having the same problem. I was supposed to go back to work this yesterday but went in and took until monday off. I sure hope I can sleep by then.
    Here is what I wrote and read at his funeral:

    From day one all we did was fight, right up until you

    grew up. now all I do is fight back my tears, wishing I

    would have apreaciated the gift I was give in you.

    I never did tell you all the things I felt, like how much

    I really did love you.I wish we could go back and start

    over again. I don't want to be alone. I need my brother


    You did so much for me, and I feel I did so little for

    you. I hope you will forgive me, for all those things I

    didn't do. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me

    most.


    many times you've made me proud, gave Me someone to look

    to and comforted me.why couldn't I see you needed me. in

    your last year you showed how strong you really were,

    facing eveything almost alone, you were always stronger

    than me.I've just never been very good at expressing my

    feelings like you, but you knew that.


    know this is not a good bye, It's me wishing you'll

    always watch over us all. Help us in times of need,

    comfort us, and help give direction in our lives. We know

    how much we all mean to you, and you always wanted the

    best for everyone, bringing family together helping

    others in need. We thank you for that, your love has made

    my world a better place. I love you Brian and will miss

    you every day.

    and I wrote this too:

    as the smoke rises
    I see you, you say
    I am free,
    free from all
    that troubled me

    you fly away,
    but the memories
    they do not fade
    they'll always be
    right here to stay

    you flew away
    but you don't fade
    you're in the clouds
    you're here to stay
    even tho you went away

    We'll be strong
    we'll try to keep
    on moving along,
    until the end
    when we'll meet again


    Jason D.


    Love you Brian

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    I'm sorry for your loss. Keep your head up!!! God never gives us too much to handle. This too shall pass!

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    So very sorry Jason
    You and your family are in my prayers
    Stay strong for your mom
    Healing moves at its own pace. Be kind to yourself and take it one day at a time.
    I know your heart is aching and again, I am truly sorry for your loss.

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    Don't despair Jason,

    Don't blame yourself for what Brian did... It's not your fault... I lost some family members this way... Try to be there for your parents & children, nieces & nephews & grandparents as this will take its toll on everyone... seek grief counseling if need be... there are group meetings you can go to ... check at your church... best wishes... just remember... time truly does heal ALL wounds... hutch

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    So sorry for your loss.

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    So sorry for your lost and I know your pain.. lost my brother too so all I can say is hang in there and take it one day at a time this road is not easy.
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    soo sorry for your loss,just keep up with your prayers,we will allso.

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    I'm so sorry for your loss....I am sure that it must be hard to think that maybe, just maybe , you could have done something, but you shouldn't blame yourself, nor should your Mom.... We will say a prayer for your family ...God Bless...

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    please don't be offended when i say i'm very sorry for your loss , i too experienced two losses , two brothers died with in nine month's of each other , sorry won't bring them back , everyone is different time will tell ..... it took me years to realize they were gone , no letters asking me how i was doing & what part of the world i was in .........

    i am not a doctor nor a counselor , a situation like this i couldn't imagine whats going through your head , please stay strong for the living , blood is thicker then water .....

    please don't go on a self destructive path , blaming yourself & hiding behind drugs & alcohol .......

    if you have problems sleeping try melatonin super snooze it promotes restful sleep & lecithin for healthy nerve and brain functions .......

    might be a good idea to visit your doctor & tell him/her about what's going on with you sleeping habits & eating problems & some head meds to help you focus ....

    CO Q 10 400 mg mixed with B100 taken without food WILL force you to eat , otherwise you'll get sick .

    CO Q 10 = for healthy heart & promotes energy
    B 100 = Sparks energy
    St. John's worth = Promotes a positive mood & for a healthy emotional balance
    Melatonin = Helps promote natural sleep

    all of these listed above are over the counter .

    Megestrol = is for appetite
    Alpramazolam AKA xanax = depending on your body either it will help you with panic attacks & or just put you to bed ....
    Carisoprodol AKA soma = muscle relaxer & or will put you to bed ........
    Head meds , Paroxetine , lexapro ect ect , are used for depression .......

    All above will require a doctors visit & approval ........

    Stay strong , please eat & walktall .........

    Also check into FMLA @ your workplace if you're a civilian ........
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    So Sorry for your loss my friend

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    Sorry for your loss Jason,our prayers are with you and your family.


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    Very sorry for your loss. You must be strong now for your mother and the rest of your family. God bless

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    Unfortunately we all feel some type of guild when we lose a loved one.. One day you will remember all the good times and smile.. My condolences to you and your family.......


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    Jason
    This is a sad time for all of you, I understand the guilt you feel, however, do not feel guilty, what is to be, will be, often it is hard to read the signs when someone has something like this in their minds, once their minds are made up, it will happen, their minds are troubled, and they see this as the only way out to relieve there problems in life, again and you and your family must not feel guilty, he is at peace, his trials and worries of this life are over....be there for your Mum and Grandmother, and yes for his children also. peace be with you all......................Charlie

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    Sorry for your loss, bud..............thoughts and prayers go you to you and your family......, again, so sorry for your loss.

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